How This Work Began

Over the summer of 2024, I was studying IT at my local college and felt quietly lost. I didn’t have a clear sense of direction, only a growing feeling that something in my life needed attention. Around that time, I began experimenting with automatic writing. I approached it carefully and without expectations, unsure whether anything meaningful would come of it. I had no spiritual background, and much of what appeared at first felt unfamiliar, fragmented, and difficult to understand. What came through were small pieces of poetic language that I questioned, tested, and often doubted.

Staying with the Process

As I continued the practice, a figure identified as Mary Magdalene introduced herself in the writing. I did not immediately accept this as truth. Instead, I treated it as something to be examined over time. I paid attention to patterns, tone, and consistency, while remaining uncertain about what I was encountering. Gradually, the material led me toward books and historical perspectives that described Mary Magdalene in ways very different from what was perceived through the church. Rather than offering answers, these discoveries deepened my questions.

Learning Through Repetition

A sense of direction did not arrive all at once. It emerged slowly, through repetition and reflection. I felt drawn to continue, yet remained hesitant, aware of my inexperience and the sensitivity of the material. I moved forward carefully, allowing doubt to remain present and useful rather than something to overcome.

After completing a 30-day course designed to help me deepen this practice, the writing became more focused, especially around Mary Magdalene’s history and the reasons she was labeled a harlot. Even then, I did not experience this as being “chosen.” Instead, it felt like something that asked for steady attention, discipline, and discernment. Any sense of confirmation came gradually, through reflection rather than certainty.

What Guides This Work Now

Studying Mary Magdalene’s life introduced me to teachings of the Gnostic Gospels and the sacred feminine, ideas challenged me both intellectually and emotionally. These teachings did not arrive as finished conclusions, but as questions that continue to open and evolve. What I am engaged in now is not a place of arrival or authority, but an ongoing responsibility to listen carefully and remain honest with the process.

What This Space Offers

This work exists as an exploration. I do not ask readers to accept my interpretations or reach the same conclusions. Instead, I invite you to witness the process as it unfolds. This space is shaped by care, devotion, and discernment. It values clarity over certainty, and expansion over final answers, offering a grounded place for inquiry, reflection, and thoughtful listening.

I don’t offer answers but reflections, practices, and a space for inner listening.